Thursday, January 05, 2006 1/05/2006 08:20:00 PMY
i think i finally woke up. i am awake. ya having a relationship tied her down. jus glad that she is free and happy. didn't do much yesterday. slpet my whole day away actually. then went for training. anyway today went to sch. java sux. i fail java test. sux man. then also fail D Fund. but did not bad. one of the best in my class actually. then for ssmat i got the highest in class. so happy. never have i get highest for anything. then was in ssmat tutorial when gf msg me. ask me go watch movie at 4. but my lesson ends at 4. so i had to run out of class half way to meet her. told teacher i had doc appointment. haha. but anyway i also got loa. she was late. wad can i say man. haha. then we watch Elizabethtown. ok onli lar. then after that walk walk and now i am here. did a bit of thinking today when i saw a very short e mail. hit me right in the face. quite hard actually. but guess it was good. at least it woke me up. so yup i will listen to the advise greg gave me. its good. guess now for the time being she hates me. hope she dun hates me for long. cos i still wan to be friends. but not at this point of time. yup i am slowly moving on i guess. thats good and i am happy that i am doing it. can't wait to move all the way. today i came to understand and see a different side of things. so i woke up. thanks to all the people that actually show their care for me. and thanks for all the advise and the asking of me to cheer up. really shows that when i am in such a state i have such friends around. great i guess. so thanks u all. and sorry to u. that i cos u so much trouble and pain and sadness. hate me now. but dun hate me for long. cos i would like to have a day where i can shake ur hand and we will be friends again. if that happens then actually God really make all things happen for a reason. cos i last time dunno u well. then becos of wad we had i got to noe u better. and after wad have happen we still can be friends then i guess we will end up being closer friends then way before when i didn't noe u well. so maybe God's plan was for us to be better friends. ya. so anyway. thanks to everyone... esp... gf.. who company me here and there. trying to scold me to wake me up. and for chad. thanks for caring. and the cd too. and of cos must thanks jasmine. cos she was there to talk to me online. and also help me make my blog until so nice. haha. to me its nice lar. and also to irene. thanks for all the vcds. will return u soon. so thats about it. oh and han lin. for wanting to meet but never had a chance. but its ok at least u tried. so now i can say Happy New Year. cos at least i found back some of my happiness. love u all. God bless u all. and me too.
