Green me.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005 12/20/2005 06:51:00 PMY

today went ikea wif gf. reminded me of alot of things. alot of happy memories i had. then i was wondering did she really jus let all this memories go so fast. God told her i was not the one. so i guess i have no say. after thinking like always. i came to find out that its actually my fault that things become like that. y do i say that. i was wondering was i the victim or not. now i found out that if i am the victim i am the one that cause it. i relise y she made this decision. my fault was that i make things move too fast. thats y she feels i am not the right one. cos i have been pushing things. and i relise my mistake. but will there be a chance for me to change wad i have done. to have things start all over again. to move slowly into it once again. i duno. but i think the chance is not high. i think she will not forgive me yet. but i still have to tell her this i have made a mistake and i learnt my mistake.. so will u give me a chance to make things right. and to stop the sadness from both of us. pls let me noe. but i guess ur ans will be no. but still i pray for that small little chance that i will be able to get to redeem myself. to change wad was wrong to right. to change the sadness into happiness once again. u were happy wif me before u said. and i will make u happy in time to come. so i am praying real hard for jus one chance to make things right. i still miss u alot. pls reply and let me noe. thnaks.