Sunday, December 18, 2005 12/18/2005 07:20:00 PMY
today was still ok.. woke up. never like that. cos when awake i think. went out today with edwin zong and brandon. they help me kill time and also keep my mind from thinking. good in a way but also bad in another. i dun wan to run i wan to face the problem. i wan to solve it. so i have made up my mind to do something. something that i shall not say. onli i will noe. today at 77 street saw M's friend working there. and also today when M told me she was having a fever, i could not help it but think. is she alright. is she ok. and i started to worry. but wad right do i have. right now i am nothing. i can't do anything. hope M u will take care of urself. and if u have any problems or trouble. u still can call me. i will always be there for u no matter wad. so take care. cos i am not in the position to do that any more. and yes i still miss and think of u.