Saturday, December 17, 2005 12/17/2005 07:57:00 PMY
to the people reading this.. todays blog will be long... jus to let u noe..todays blog is about a story.. a story of a boy who lost everything. he was praying that this day will never come. but it did. the day when he was rob of everything. happiness turned into sadness. memories turned into sharp knief and into the heart it goes. hope and joy turned into hurt and pain. this will be the story of the boy whose life change in a night.the night was tiring. the night was not cold. the night was sad. filled with tears in his eyes. never had he thought he would cry like that once again. when the last time he did was when he was 4 a young boy then. 14 years ago. when his dad pass away. he couldn't slp. he was tired but he couldn't slp. finally his body got to him and he felt asleep into a slp he had hope he would not wake up from. when he woke up in the morning he felt this pain. he had fallen from a tall building and landed right on his chest first. the pain he felt he could not put it away. he tried but it didn't work. he cried but it did not help. the one he love so dearly so much was gone. he thought in his mind. something bad i should say. he thought God is this a test for me. R u testing my faith for u. is this a big joke u r playing on me. (thats the bad part.) but he could not get an answer. he always believe that God has a plan for him. so wad was God's plan now by taking away his happiness. he didn't noe and still is thinking wad it can all mean. wad was the joke some of u may think. here it is. the big joke that he thought. he waited for 8 days for his love one to return. couldn't wait for her to be back. and the joke is he waited 8 days to hear a break up. a break up that will bring his whole world down in jus one night. funny isn't it. he waited so long for someone to find out that he waited for the worst thing that could happen to him. no one noes how he feels. people might think they noe but they dun. cos they think with their brains not their heart. the boy lives on. dunno wad will happen next. may time heal or may time bring more hurt.i jsu got back from a long walk from pasir ris to tampines and back to simei. the walk took about 1 hour and 30 mins. thinking alot as he walk. but felt the most pain when i step into my own house. can't forget. memories that i once had. memories that was happy. now wonders in my mind of if it was good ones or has it turn into something that is hurting. for now it is hurt. i strongly dun believe that one will change her feelings that fast. jus one trip. i have done nth wrong u say. but the result i get is like a pushinment to me for something i did wrong. the thing u took away from me was the one i treasured the most. the one that i was willing to put up my life for. now its gone. reflection: God i noe i was wrong in thinking u played a big joke on me. i noe u have a plan. make me strong to see the plan and to move one. give me the strength that i need. in Jesus name i pray. amen.
